I just looked up the website of a foundation from which I won a small fellowship a couple of years ago in order to see who has won them lately. Big mistake, as my bête noire is one of the recent winners. I was doing so well since I stopped reading his blog, but now I’m full of resentment again.
Or maybe it wasn’t such a big mistake. As I’ve pointed out before, envy is often a great motivator for me. Also, rereading my post about my bête noire makes me recognize that my own work situation has improved quite a lot, perhaps even to the point where I don’t actually envy him anymore.
(OK, I still don’t think he deserves the fellowship. But whatever.)
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